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THE POSITION OF MY PILLOW

9 April, 2001—Petulu, Bali—

My pillow must have been gray at 5AM this morning when I left it lying unnoticed on the edge of my rumpled bed. Everything else was gray—the bed itself, the porch tiles, the palms in the garden, even the tea I poured was gray, even the chipped cup that I poured my gray tea into.

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Yet returning to the bedroom an hour after sunrise, I spy a patch of brilliant yellow light hollowed out near one corner of my abandoned pillow. I’m convinced, absolutely, that nothing but my own head could have left it there. What dreams I must have had last night—to leave such a glowing impression on sleep! I ease myself into bed, careful not to disturb the position of my pillow, lowering my head gently back into that pocket of light. It’s a perfect fit, and I feel its warmth, but the magic is already gone.

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Ms

You just keep doing it, don't you...capturing that one thing, that color, that physical presence...and it's so familiar, and so mysterious, just like we are one and all.

Posted by: Ms | March 06, 2012 at 06:37 PM

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  • 16 September, 2008.....Along the way: so many details lost. But for maybe the first time since I began this travel journal seventeen years ago, it occurs to me: so what? Perhaps the journey is necessarily made up of this sediment of forgotten detail as much as it is constructed from the details of this Architecture of Memory rising visibly above hidden depths. As in dream interpretation, that architecture is infrastructurally skeletal, the bulk of what meets the mind's eye being appended later—draped like a descriptive cloak over the bones of all that has been lost to consciousness. Given this iceberg-like quality of memory, I needn't worry overmuch about narrative sequence either. For if Elsewhere is as much that realm of things forgotten as of things recalled, so each time it is recalled, it is somewhere else.
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